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It is so funny and crazy, this life, all the ideas which flow through my mind, experiences which appear in daily living...

All my life I was searching for "who" or "what"  I am, tried to become a personality, to be someone, to be like this - but not like that, so that people would like me, I would fit into society...

But I got more and more confused, when ever I thought that I am like this or like that, in the next moment I was someone totally different, even I tried so hard to be always the same, following the idea of who I am or who I should be, as my surrounding was always suggesting me, as I got teached all my life from my parents, the churches, the TV, the friends and even from people I just met and never met again...

In one moment I just love to live and in an other moment I feel that I want to die...

In one moment I just feel amazing strong and in the next moment I feel so weak...

In one moment I feel fully integrated into life and in an other moment it feels that I am so alone...

In one moment I feel like a father/-mother and in the next moment I feel like the child and in an other moment I feel like a grand father/-mother...

In one moement I know every thing what there is to know and in an other moment I have no glimps what this life is about...

In one moment I can see just peace and love arround me and in the next moment I see only hate and war...

In one moment I feel full of love and in the next moment full of hate...

In one moment I am so clear and straight and in an other moment I am so confused...

In one moment I want to plan life and in the next moment I don't want what I planed...

In one moment I just trust in everything and anybody and in an other moment I doupt all what I think, hear or see...

In one moment I want to do this action and in the next moment it feels so wrong to do so...

So I got more and more confused, about the "who's" or "what's" I could be, realise that what ever I think or am planing,  in the next moment has no meaning anymore...

So hard I tried to be, to become someone who knows "who" and/or "what" he/she is...

I tried so hard to follow education, teachings, suggestions and conditionings from my surrounding...

So strong I was searching for "what" or "who" I am living here in this world...

So hard I tried to find my way, how to live this life...

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Then...  

I surrender...

just give up...

just stop to search...

just stop to ask...

and then:

"suddenly" I realise...

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I AM "BUT" I'M NOT

and

"I AM" becomes "IT IS"

and

"I"/"ME" becomes "IT"

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Now it starts to become fun to live, to see that "IT" has nothing to be like this or like that, nothing to do in this or that way...

Just curious observing what in the next moment will appear...

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